As long as I can remember I’ve had anxiety. As a child, I worried about a lot of things and my tendency to fret became worse as I grew into young adulthood. It was everything from a noise in my car to needing approval from my parents about everything to wondering how in the world I’d ever had the life I’d dreamed of. It was only when I finally had to stop working (my worst fear coming true) that I finally knew I had to find a way to cope with my anxiety and take away its power over me.
Part of what helped me get better was learning that my worries aren’t truth or facts. They are just stories my brain tells me out of a bad habit of obsessing over all the “what ifs” about the future. I don’t have to listen, and you don’t have to, either.
This isn’t to say that I don’t worry sometimes, though. My stomach is in knots right now because I have to go back to pain management tomorrow and find out what’s going to happen now that the pharmacy I’ve been using decided they know better than the pain management specialists how much pain medication is appropriate for me. It’s a long story, but you can imagine how riddled with emotion this situation has been. I feel guilty about needing pain medication and needing so much of it because I have such a high tolerance after all these years. The pharmacist also insinuated to me on the phone that I have an addiction, which makes me angry and sad. No one deserves to be treated that way.
But at least I have some better skills for coping with the worries that still crop up. I’m struggling, but I’m not going to let any of these worries keep me down.
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DISCLAIMER: Nothing on this site constitutes medical or legal advice. I am a patient who is engaged and educated and enjoys sharing my experiences and news about migraines, pain, and depression. Please consult your own health care providers for advice on your unique situation.